Tuesday, 1 March 2011

But Why?

My son is going though the 'But why?' stage.
I really wasnt expecting it so soon, and last night asked the question I had been dreading.

Today is my brothers birthday and when I was putting my son to bed last night, I said we would go and see him and the doggy today. My son replied in a questioning tone 'and Granny?'

I just said 'No, you cant see Granny'
'But Why?'

I didn't answer, he's not going to understand so I just swept it under the carpet and carried on telling him the plans for today.

When I came out his room I went in the bathroom and cried. The realisation that the only way I will get to hear mums voice again are on videos and her face is now just a series of photographs.

The night I tried to sleep at the bottom of mums bed, just over 5 weeks ago, I couldnt sleep because there were song lyrics running through my head. Just the chorus of a song but now I listen to it again in its entirity the verses are very relevant too.
Heres the link as to what was running through my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WktvWxmEl04

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